Week 8, Day 51

I think I'm looking for a nice round number to start off at. I think maybe Monday March 1. I don't know why it seems to be easier to get on track at the beginning of a month/week/year. Been pretty good today except missed my afternoon snack. Am looking forward to Caribbean Chicken Salad tonight, so probably will do ok tonight too. Skipped the gym again. Just don't feel like going.

Week 8, Day 50

Goals
It's a new week. I think it's realistic to say I want to be perfect. I also have a refrigerator full of fresh veggies, so I better use them! Goals for today, eat what's planned, drink all water, cardio after work (plus a little "other" extra exercise). We'll see!

Progress
Didn't go to the gym, but did eat and drink as planned. Not too bad. Been getting plenty of cardio done at home.

Time to Regroup

I think I need to go about this thing in a different way. First of all some honest truths. 1. I can't really focus fully on multiple things at a time. Multitasking is fine when it consists of doing laundry, vacuuming, and watching TV, but major life projects? Forget about it. 2. Right now getting pregnant is more important to me than getting in shape. 3. Eating right and exercise, while it sounds simple takes real will-power.

What to do about it? First of all, I think I'm going to change the format of my posts. I've found myself not posting because I don't want to actually write down what I ate badly. The idea was the fact that I had to write it down would prevent me from eating badly, but it's working the other way around, the fact that I'm eating badly is preventing me from posting. Here's what I want to do. Every morning I'll try to lay out a plan or a few goals, for example, eat only authorized foods, drink all my water, do cardio at the gym. Or if I'm feeling a little less industrious - Don't eat any sweets, only drink a coke after getting in all water. Then as the day goes on. I'll add in positives or negatives about how I'm doing. As far as the specifics of what I eat, if I try a new recipe I liked I'll post, but I don't see why writing down every bite is necessary.

Plans for the future? Ultimately I would love to be in shape. I was really close to where I wanted to be last June/July, but then I got side-tracked with this pregnancy thing. It's going to take a lot of will-power to get that back and I don't know if I can dedicate myself completely to doing BFL if in my spare time I thinking about ovulation and countdowns to test taking. Last time, I spent my free time researching new workouts for the gym and how to get a six-pack. Right now I feel my goals are mutually exclusive.

Now I don't want to give up. All in all, I still want to do the best I can. Here's my plan. I'm giving the TTC thing two more cycles. Probably through the end of April (6 months). If by that time, I'm still not pregnant, I'm going to take a break from trying. I'll stop charting etc. (I'm not going to do anything to prevent pregnancy, but not really focus on trying to get there either). During that break, I will committ to a full-fledged 12 week program. In the mean time, I think I'll have Eric do a before picture of me, that I will post (probably not here) for inspiration and try starting in March to stick to the plan 100%. I did great in January, so it is possible.

I know I sound like I'm wimping out. I'm not giving up though, just trying to be a bit more realistic.

Wednesday, February 18, 2004 - Week 7, Day 45

Morning Weight - 149.0

Food
Meal 1 - 8:15 p.m. Protein Shake & Apple
Meal 2 - 10:45 p.m. String Cheese & FF Yogurt
Meal 3-
Meal 4-
Meal 5-
Meal 6-
Water - 0 bottles

Exercise
Planning on cardio tonight.

Thoughts

Tuesday, February 17, 2004 - Week 7, Day 44

Morning Weight - 149.5 (yep, it's that bad)

Food
Meal 1 - 8:15 p.m. Protein Shake & Apple
Meal 2 - 10:45 p.m. String Cheese & FF Yogurt
Meal 3- 12:30 p.m. Baked Chicken Parm & Spinich Salad w/FF Italian
Meal 4- 3:30 p.m. Protein Shake & Popcorn
Meal 5- 7:45 p.m. Chicken Quesadillas (EFL pg ?)
Meal 6- 10:00 p.m. Anyday Sunday (EFL pg?)
Water - 5 bottles

Exercise
Upper Body tonight. I love upper body.
Did abs first. Man I despise doing abs. Then rest of upper body. It went pretty good, I should probably look over everything again and consider changing up some weights.

Thoughts
I've decided I'm not going to let PMS get me down this month. I did great in January, why has February been so hard?

Tried some more EFL recipes. The anyday sunday was good, but NOT the consistancy of ice cream. It was more like melted ice cream. Maybe I blended the bananas too much. Anyway, it was yummy. I think the quesadillas are more of a good lunch item, although I guess I didn't get hungry afterwards. Hmmm.

Monday, February 16, 2004 - Week 7, Day 43

Morning Weight -

Food
Meal 1 - 10:30 a.m. FF Yogurt & String Cheese
Meal 2 - 1:30 p.m. Turkey Bacon BLT - Turkey Bacon, FF Mayo, Lettuce, Tomato, FF Cheddar on Wheat Tortilla
Meal 3- 3:30 p.m. Protein Shake & Apple
Meal 4- 6:45 p.m. Baked Chicken Parm - EFL pg 116? Yummy!
Meal 5- 9:00 p.m. String Cheese & Popcorn
Meal 6- 10:45 p.m. Apple (Whoops!)
Water - 5 bottles

Exercise
Was being lazy all day and almost skipped. Got my butt in gear and went to the gym. Cardio on treadmill, 1.9 miles in 20 minutes plus cool down. It's a real workout, but I think I need to increase something. Maybe speed again or add an incline. We'll see.

Thoughts
Wasn't really tempted to cheat today. I think it helps that we got rid of most of the "bad" food over the weekend. Now we didn't throw it out, but we managed to get rid of it. Back to work tomorrow, that shouldn't be too bad. I loved the Chicken Parm dinner. Definately felt like cheating. Very yummy.

Saturday, February 14, 2004 - Week 6, Day 41

Morning Weight -

Food
Meal 1 - 10:15 a.m. Bacon Egg & Cheese McGriddle
Meal 2 - 12:00 p.m. Chicken Fried Rice
Meal 3- 7:45 p.m. Outback Steakhouse - Cheese Fries, Salad w/Ranch, Bread, 7 oz Filet w/bleu cheese, baked potato w/butter
Meal 4-
Meal 5-
Meal 6-
Water - 3 bottles

Exercise
Made up cardio from yesterday. 1.9 miles in 20 minutes. Not sure if I want to up speed next week. Maybe I'll keep the speed the same and add some incline? Also did abs before workout and think that's what I have to do to stay motivated. They suck. Then I did lower body. It was pretty good.

Thoughts
This is it. After today I'm back on track tomorrow. I haven't done new meal plans, but I'll do tomorrow. Since I've been eating bad, I still have plenty of "good" food around the house. I did great on exercise this week, but need to put it all together.

Friday, February 13, 2004 - Week 6, Day 40

Morning Weight -

Food
Meal 1 - 8:00 a.m. Apple
Meal 2 - 12:00 p.m. Cup Chili, Turkey, Bacon Croissant w/potato chips (restaurant in building)
Meal 3- 3:00 p.m. Goldfish
Meal 4- 6:30 p.m. Cheesburger and a few fries from McDonald's
Meal 5- 8:30 p.m. 1/2 soft pretzel & shared Coke with Eric at the game
Meal 6- 10:30 p.m. Bowl of Lite Cookie Dough Ice Cream
Water - 2 bottle

Exercise
None because of AFL game. Will attempt both cardio and lower body at gym on Saturday.

Thoughts

Thursday, February 12, 2004 - Week 6, Day 39

Morning Weight - 148.5

Food
Meal 1 - 8:15 a.m. McDonald's Bacon Egg & Cheese McGriddle, Hash Brown
Meal 2 - 11:30 a.m. Einstein's Holy Cow, Chips, and Pickle
Meal 3- 7:00 p.m. Taco Bell - Mexican Pizza, Chicken Supreme Gordita, Soft Taco Supreme
Meal 4- 10:00 p.m. Strawberry shortcake w/splenda sweetened strawberries and cool whip in a can
Meal 5-
Meal 6-
Water - 9 1/2 bottles

Exercise
Did upper body and abs. Did abs first. I think that helped get them in. I love doing upper body.

Thoughts
I'm really sore from yesterdays workout. I must have used neglected muscles. I didn't want to post my last couple of days eating, but feel I should. Maybe next week I'll be back on track. I hope.

Wednesday, February 11, 2004 - Week 6, Day 38

Morning Weight - 148

Food
Meal 1 - 8:00 a.m. Protein Shake & Apple
Meal 2 - 9:30 p.m. Starbucks Hot Chocolate & Bagel w/Cream Cheese
Meal 3- 12:45 p.m. Sante Fe Chicken Soup
Meal 4- 2:00 p.m. String Cheese
Meal 5- 7:00 p.m. Totinos Pizza
Meal 6- 10:00 p.m. Lite Kroger Brand Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream.
Water - 3 bottles

Exercise
Started doing cardio, but stomach was having some issues. Quit after about 5 minutes and decided to join the class taking place. It was a cardio circuit doing different stations for a minute at a time. I did push ups on a ball, lunges w/medicine ball, jumping from leg to leg w/medicine ball, squats w/large ball against wall, leg lifts on the ball, V-crunches w/ball, cross over crunches w/ball, squats side to side w/large ball, twisting and lifting leg w/large ball, squat & jump w/medicine ball, and side lunges w/medicine ball. It was actually pretty tough.

Thoughts
At least exercise isn't slipping.

Tuesday, February 10, 2003

Morning Weight - 148

Food
Meal 1 - 8:00 a.m. Protein Shake & Apple
Meal 2 - 9:45 p.m. String Cheese & FF Yogurt
Meal 3- 12:30 p.m. (Lunch Out) House Salad w/Grilled Chicken & Light Italian (I didn't eat the roll and butter!)
Meal 4- 3:00 p.m. Protein Shake & Orange
Meal 5- Sante Fe Chicken Soup
Meal 6- Crackers
Water - 3 or 4 ?bottles

Exercise
Lower Body and some abs. I need to figure something out on abs. I get so tired by the end of my workout that I don't feel like doing the complete set of abs.

Thoughts
The diet is slipping, but I thought I should write it down.

Monday, February 9, 2003 - Week 6, Day 36

Morning Weight - Don't go there

Food
Meal 1 - 7:45 a.m. Protein Shake & Apple
Meal 2 - 9:30 a.m. Detour Bar
Meal 3- 11:45 a.m. Roast Turkey & Dressing, Slice of Bread w/butter, Peas, Salad w/Italian (ate out after work meeting, limited choices, not even a grilled chicken sandwich)
Meal 4- 1:15 p.m. Diet Coke & McDonald's French Fries
Meal 5- 7:00 p.m. Buffalo Burger, salad w/ff Italian, Apple
Meal 6-
Water - 5 bottles

Exercise
Did cardio after work and while I was dreading it, man did it feel good. I ran 1.9 miles in my 20 minutes plus cool down. It felt really good. I may actually consider speeding up again next week.

Thoughts
Wasn't perfect today, but am going to try to make my evening at home perfect. Tomorrow will be hard too as I have a lunch meeting. Oh, well, I have to learn to make wise choices when not at home.

Thursday, Februray 5, 2004 - Week 5, Day 32 - Free Week

Morning Weight - 148

Food
Meal 1 - 8:15 a.m. Starbucks Hot Chocolate and Cinamon Raisin Bagel w/Cream Cheese
Meal 2 -
Meal 3-
Meal 4-
Meal 5-
Meal 6-
Water - 0 cups

Exercise
Planning on Lower Body tonight.

Thoughts
Not giving up on exercise. I promise next week will be better.

Wednesday, February 4, 2004 - Week 5, Day 31

Morning Weight - 148

Food
Meal 1 - 8:00 a.m. Protein Shake & Banana
Meal 2 - 10:00 a.m. String Cheese & FF Yogurt
Meal 3- 12:45 p.m. Lean Ham, FF American, & FF Mayo on 2 slices wheat bread, carrots
Meal 4- 3:30 p.m. Protein Shake & Orange
Meal 5- 7:00 p.m. Spaghetti
Meal 6- 9:00 p.m. Finished off yesterday's caramel corn and had some soft batch chocolate chip cookies
Water - 10 cups

Exercise
Will be doing cardio after work. No skipping! Must have done something right last night, my back/shoulders are sore.

Great run. Upped my speed. 1.87 miles in 21 minutes.

Thoughts
I think I'm back on track. Yesterday's cravings for all things chocolate, was much better. I am regaining composure. I do want to be in shape. I even packed a ham sandwich, no taking chances by eating out.

Ok, so I've decided that the diet is off until Sunday or Monday. I didn't necessarily feel like cheating last night, but everything on my menu to eat didn't sound appetizing. Therefore, I'm going to reuse this week's meal plan next week and declare this Free Week.

Tuesday, February 3, 2004 - Week 5, Day 30

Morning Weight - 148

Food
Meal 1 - 8:00 a.m. Protein Shake & Apple
Meal 2 - 10:00 a.m. String Cheese & FF Yogurt
Meal 3- 12:00 p.m. Ham & Swiss on Cabota Bread (Einstein's) w/ Chips and Pickle
Meal 4- 3:30 p.m. Protein Shake & Orange
Meal 5- 7:30 p.m. Bean Stuff - Lite Smoked Sausage, Rice, Tortilla, Low Fat Cheese, FF Sour Cream, Taco Sauce
Meal 6- 9:30 p.m. Microwave Carmel Corn
Water - 10 cups

Exercise
Make up yesterday's cardio and do upperbody.

Didn't make up cardio, but did have an awesome upperbody workout. No more skipping workouts. If I do a good job lifting, I am done at the end and have no energy to run on the treadmill. Upper body was awesome though.

Thoughts
That weight number is bothering me. It's time to get back on track.

Oh, but it's hard. Hopefully a nice hard workout tonight will make me feel better.

Still didn't do a great job eating, but it's progressively getting better. I ate too much of the bean stuff and used white rice not brown. The carmel corn wasn't good, but was better than ice cream. Only about 10 grams of fat and 30-40 carbs. Ok, I'm declaring PMS officially over.

Monday, February 2, 2004 - Week 5, Day 29

Morning Weight - 148

Food
Meal 1 - 8:15 a.m. Protein Shake & Apple
Meal 2 - 10:00 a.m. String Cheese & FF Yogurt
Meal 3- 12:00 p.m. Portion Chicken Breast, Egg Noodles, Salad w/FF Italian
Meal 4- 3:15 p.m. Shake & Orange
This gets bad...
Meal 5- 4 slices left over pizza
Meal 6- Ben & Jerry's Cookie Dough Ice Cream, Handful Goldfish, Hershey's w/Almonds
Water - 8 cups & 2 regular Coke's

Exercise
None.

Thoughts
I'm going to chalk this one up to my period. I just wanted to curl up on the couch with chocolate and ice cream. There's no where left to go, but up.

Sunday, February 1, 2004 - Week 4, Day 28 - Free Day Part 2

Morning Weight - 146

Food
Meal 1 - 11:00 a.m. French Toast w/Butter and Syurp & 2 Glasses of Milk
Meal 2 - Throughout afternoon - Goldfish Crackers
Meal 3- 5:15 p.m. Pizza & Wings
Meal 4- Throughtout evening, more wings, chips and dip, a couple of meatballs, Dirt Cake, 3 cans of Coke
Meal 5-
Meal 6-
Water - 12 cups

Exercise
None planned.

Thoughts
Super Bowl Party is today, so we will be eating all sorts of bad food later. Am really craving a regular Coke. Not pregnant, so don't have to worry about the caffine, I may indulge, but only after I get in all of my water. Will do stats tomorrow, but may be a little bloated due to "the time of month", but actually measured on Saturday morning just in case, if those are better, I'll use them. Shhh. That's not cheating.

I just finished all of my water. 5 bottles in 4 hours, wow I feel like I'm floating. Eric's out picking up the "bad" food, I can't wait!