Where Have I Been?

Where have I been? Certainly not eating healthy and exercising.

Excuses - Working like crazy. Staying late or bringing work home nearly every night, which I start working on the moment Grace goes to bed. Still haven't figured out how to have a "good" dinner before we begin the Grace bedtime routine.

Plans? - I'm thinking baby steps. Hoping to be out of town this weekend to visit extended realative and brother home from Iraq for 2 weeks (stay in there, Bean! Sorry Samara). So, the plan for this week is to stay away from Coke and dessert type items (cookies, ice cream, candy bars, etc). I'm seriously talking baby steps.

I also need to do some serious thinking on how to get good dinners in. I could actually start back one week from today, if I can plan this week. I think I'm going to have to do some cooking on the weekends and have "ready meals" that I can heat or prepare in 15 minutes or less. If I leave work on time I have about 1 hour from the time I walk in the door, until I need to get started on Grace's routine. If you take off the 15 minutes wasted changing clothes, letting the dog out, changing Grace's diaper and looking through the mail, that gives me 45 minutes. If I take 15 minutes to prepare dinner, 20 minutes to eat it, I would still have 10 minutes to just play with Grace before she gets her dinner, bath, book and goes to bed. See? I really need to plan ahead. There is no time for indecision.

Exercise could come back into play after next week, definately by June 1. Work should slow down considerably after the 1st, so I should be able to come home on time and have time to myself.

This weekend I tried to talk Eric in to joining me. He seemed agreeable, but he'd also had a couple of drinks. He goes overboard though. The lowest I've weighed and the best shape I've been in as an adult was in May/June of 2003. I weighed in at 136 pounds and was really fit. Then all the baby stuff started. I am now hovering between 158 and 160 pounds. I told Eric my ultimate goal is to get to 140 pounds. He said I should get to 125. I said he was crazy. He said ok 130, I said 140. He said 135 and wouldn't budge. I asked if he realized that I didn't even make 135 when I was at the height of all of my fitness craze. I've had a baby since then and don't need to look like a super model. I honestly don't think I could get to 125 without major professional help (a daily personal trainer and dietician) and at 130 pounds would probably even have visible ab muscles. 135 would be awesome, but at this point in my life I don't really have the drive to work that hard. I would look great at 140 and more importantly feel good and I think that should be my goal. It's still 18-20 pounds! Shouldn't that be enough? Now in his defense, he was also setting crazy goals for himself of 210 pounds. Seriously. I said he would look great at 225 or 230, but he thinks 210 is the answer. He brings up weighing 190 in high school, but come on, you aren't fully developed yet in high school, so get real. He probably weighs 275 or so right now, so 230 would be 45 pounds. When he lost weight before he got down to about 235 and went from a size 42/44 to 38 pant. I'd love to see him permantely in a 38. He's a big guy, he doesn't need to try to be a size 34, just lose a little of the belly and he'd feel much better.

Ok, enough rambling. I didn't weigh in this week, if I weigh tomorrow I'll put my weight down and I'll probably update again next week, I know the everyday thing isn't happening yet.